Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
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Took alot of courage for me to start blogging in this post. 
Because everytime I get started, the tears start flowing. 
I told someone special I will get a tattoo at the next turning point of my life. 
Now, a new chapter has really begun. I want to remind myself of my sins, I want to be stricken by guilt so history won't repeat itself again. 
I am thinking along these 3 choices: phrases or a rose design engraved with either 1 of the phrase/word below.  
1) negotium of gaudium or in english pursuit of happyness (this will serve to remind me to be on the right direction in life. no more fantasies. it will only be me myself and I and establishing a career)
2) Dreams are driving forces of reality (I live by this phrase and I will continue to do so) 
3) crimen (this time..this shameful and despicable act, i will always remember it) 

And anyone able to help me draw a beautiful rose design? Rose circumference to be 3 inches. I want some words engraved onto the petal of the rose. Any recommendations for artists? 

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This is it.

It's the end.
I ruined everything. 

Now, its only Tintin and I against the world. 









 

I'm sooooo happy and excited!


Teddy and I bought a puppy over the weekends after scouting for more than 3 months (since before CNY!) for the perfect puppy! We both had the feel, the bond and the love for this lil puppy we saw in Pasir Ris Farmway. 

The customers who used to purchase from this similar farm (which we purchased our lil dog) brought their grown dogs back to linger around the farm and let the owner groom the fur and boy oh boy, we see for ourselves the quality of the dogs which came from this farm - they are soooo pretty and handsome with the eyes and nose forming a perfect equilateral triangle. It was seeing these dogs that make up our minds in purchasing from this farm. I heard alot of bad things about dogs that are breeded from such farms and already had a stereotypical view against all these dog breeders but this farm here with the sincerest owner which I endearingly called "auntie ah auntie.." showed me she can breed quality maltese pups and is a responsible dog breeder. Also thanks to Diane whom I called to give me advice regarding placing an advance deposit for Ericsson's Farm pups (flown in from Australia). I was contemplating whether to place this $1000 deposit to wait for "the perfect pup". And thank god I didn't.

Because I found my perfect puppy and this lil girl here is sooo adorable! She look at Teddy and I with alert eyes despite being down with a cough and flu after her 2nd vaccination. When I carried her and she was only the size of my palm although she's already 3 months old. Her pawpaw is sooooo small my goodness! Out of the 4 siblings, she's the last one and also, the smallest in the entire family hehe. I can hear her coughing and I felt the pain in my heart even though I was merely carrying her and have not confirm the purchase for her. 

So, I will have to wait patiently for her to finish her medication about 2-3 weeks before I can bring her home :) Might as well! I have to clean up my room and make space for her! :*) I will be taking time off from VGY every sat to head down to the farm and look at her progress. 

In my 1 hour time in this farm, I launched into a goo-goo talk (haha) and told her "You shall be called Tintin, okay?" And before Teddy and I left the farm, we said "Bye Tintin!" and this little pot turned around and look at us leave the farm! Oh my muffin! Super cute! It almost seem like she knows her name! I almost launched into another goo-goo talk haha. It's impossible not to do that when you are faced with such an adorable puppy -___-" 





So this little pot will be called Tintin. And Tintin + Robocop shall make friends :D Now I will have 2 animals in my room with me. Weeeeeeeee~~~~!

 

 Yayy! Burnnotesburnfilesburnbooksburnpencilcase! Exams are finalllllyyy over!

And work is starting to overwhelm me! I am not taking any breaks! :) I'm moving forward with VGY! I have been running about stocking up new clothes at the racks @ Haji Lane and FEP. And I am scooting about looking for nice outfits to bring in for the new collection. Not only that, I have meetings and discussed collaborations over emails. Whoa~ It's all coming to me altogether. I could really use some help. But.........who can handle all these? Who can sacrifice their sleeping time to work for VGY? Who can put in that much dedication for VGY like I do? Who can forgo fun and leisure time to sit in front of the computer 24/7 and watch over the new collection launches for me? Who can help me stitch photos together for new collection posts? Who can help give myself....more time? 


Alongside the opportunities that are springing up in surprising corners for VGY, I am very happy that I have good horoscope and tarot reading for the coming weeks ;) Reading my horoscope day to day cheers me up haha. Ok I sorta believe in them. They are usually very true for me. 







I am working on some very useful advice I received in one of my conversations with someone....someone....wise ;) I believe in them and it came true. That's how powerful dreams and beliefs can be. 


YOU TURN DREAMS INTO REALITY IF YOU BELIEVE IN BELIEVING IN THEM AND WORK TOWARDS IT - TAKING IN EVERYTHING THAT COMES IN YOUR WAY, BE IT THE WORST OR FOR THE BETTER. 


I definitely hope I can bring VGY higher up on the pedestal and I am working on it - and its making my head feel like a gazillion pounds because I feel the stress every moment. 

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After a grueling long day running about for VGY, I went for some small shopping :) Read on the magazines about High Beam from Benefit and I intend to try it out. Turns out I was so convinced by the salesgirl who did a small experimental makeover for me using Benefit products 

AND I END UP SPENDING $214  O_____O 
If Teddy sees this....I am so going to be in tonight's dinner..



Okay, shall give my reviews when I have used them. Actually tried BeneTint and it is really good :) Go get it. It cost me about $67 if I didn't remember wrongly. 


DAMN THAT SALESGIRL. IT'S YOUR FAULT. GO COOK HER FOR TONIGHT'S DINNER OKAY TEDDY. SWEAR IT'S TOTALLY NOT ME THIS TIME. SHE WANT TO EARN MY COMMISSION.

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And to end off this post, I have a US$5.8K teacup maltese on my hand which is only the height of your smallest mineral bottle when she sits up - AND THIS IS HER FULL GROWTH SIZE! 

Darn cute that little pot. 



Didn't dare to lift her up at first because she is sooooooo skinny and I was so afraid of breaking her bones but in the end, I was overwhelmed by her cuteness and........I scooped her up and place her on my lap. Then she fell asleep on my arms! ARRRRHHH!! SO CUTE!!!! Like how Robocop rested his head on the wheel and fell asleep hahahaha.

Anyone wants to buy me this little pot for my.....7-months-in-advance birthday present? 

:*) Teddy? 

I got a new pet.

Not a ferocious dog but a tiny terror. Its breed is a Roborovskii. Damn cool right. Yeah you tell me :p

I was thinking of names for this...this small ball of fur...so I came up with........... 


ROBOCOP    :D






I know alot of people name their pet hamsters, "Hamhamlove", "lovelove", "Xiao-ham" etc and as im typing these names im cringing in horror. 

YOU EXPECT ME TO WALK INTO MY HOUSE AND CALL "HAMHAM HAVE YOU BEEN GUARDING MY ROOM"!???
HAMHAM!!???? ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS!? -_____-"" 

Please don't come confess in my blog that you are one of those who name your hamsters such disgusting endearing names. I will regurgitate all my juices and curl into a ball then die. Like a flaccid pen... No, a flaccid worm. What are you thinking?

Apparently, Robocop seems pleased with his name :D He's a smart one okay. He responds to his name! If there are any centres to test the IQ of your pet...er pet hamster, I will send Robocop there. 

So I spent a total of $81 to buy Robocop. Complete with everything that will make a hamster....happy -___- 



As you can see, he lives on my table. Haha. Beside all my makeup, hairsprays, perfumes. Check out his little 2nd storey house with a cute purple roof! He goes up to this house via the blue ladder on the left. 



And he has his own rocket shaped bathhouse with Apple scented sand so he will smell like a fruit -_- 



If you can recognize, Robocop is on the second level in this "Hide & Seek" polaroid. Whenever I whip out my camera, he seems to know that I am taking photos of him and he will stare long enough at the camera for me to take a few shots of him! In fact, there are many other photos of him looking into the camera, almost SMILING AT SOME INSTANCES! 

Ok I am not exaggerating like some amateur pet owner excited by their first ball of fur. Robocop really amaze me with his weird tactics. 

And the funny thing is, he doesn't let me catch him at all. Went to check with the pet shop and they told me Roborovskii hamsters are not for me to "catch up and play" but just for me to "see see". Sian 1/2, imagine my spirits. Apparently, everytime I try to catch Robocop, he will break into a frantic sprint around his cage and bolt up the ladder to hide in his house. Then he push his nesting to block the entrance to his house -______-""""  

So I gave up trying to pick him up and gave him a new nickname. 


KAN CHIONG SPIDER.
 

He apparently is not pleased with his new nickname. And he scowls at me when i say "OI KAN CHIONG SPIDER". I will take a photo of that stupid face and show you guys. Freaking irritating and yet amusing. I mean, don't tell me he knows he is not a spider and scowls at me because I said spider instead of KAN CHIONG HAMSTER? Or maybe he will be happier if I call him KAN CHIONG KING. Ok, will try that. 

On a casual note, I went to Vaio Centre today to service my laptop. I did not lose my cool there. I converse politely with the service staff and asked for their help kindly. Haha. I can't imagine I did that. For I was once considered a terror customer at Wisma Atria Service Centre. I screamed at the service staff in front of 10XXXXX waiting customers and I demand a change of new laptop and you can't believe what a big hoo-ha I made. Omg. Tricia Ong. You are a nightmare. On the other hand, I paid $2.2k for my laptop and I am justified to get angry when a costly gadget like this screwed up within 1 month of purchase right? Oi, right?

But I changed :))))) The service staff whom recognized me was apparently veryyyyy surprised by my change in attitude haha. And he confessed some seriouussss issue to me regarding Sony Vaio CS laptops... Hmmmmmmmmm...... Tsktsk..

While waiting for the Vaio service staff to contact me again, I went to take a walk around Orchard and I bought new shirts!!! :D 

Remember  Amanda Seyfriend in Dear John movie? The opening scene where she wore a sheer white shirt over her bikini? I found the similar sheer boyfriend shirt in Forever21 today! 

In my excitement, I bought both colors! :D 



Can you see the sheerness of this light green shirt? I strip down to just my bra and white hot pants. Imagine wearing a colored bikini inside and just heading to Sentosa with it! Madness! :D :D :D I LIKE!

 

I bought this denim colored one as well. Look at how sheer it is! Perfect for the beach! :D 



And this was what I wore out today. I loveeeeee mini maxis :D Or that's what I call them because they only end up halfway at your calf. I matched with this awesome cream wedges recommended by crunchycoconut hahaha. Will show a picture of this pretty cream wedge in my next post! :) 




The design on my mini maxi. A pair of old English Victorian Kids kissing in vintage allure. Only 4 pieces available in Singapore for this design! I am not selling this online! 1 piece is placed in Far East Plaza The BlogShop and the other 2 pieces are placed in Haji Lane The BlogShop! The last one is mineeee! Go grab yours! It hails from Japan and the print is totally vintagey and sweet. 

Off to see my KAN CHIONG SPIDER! 

Good night! 
 

 

It is midweek now and I am in the midst of revisions. Things are progressing quite slow as there are so many to study but I don't know where to start. 



With inverted commas, i think? I didn't think that way when I worked for 1 year in the company. I felt like returning to study and I have to drag myself to work everyday. But when I am back studying now.... Ok I'll just leave it there haha. 

I can't wait for exams to be over. I am going to start manufacturing something for VGY. I have the design out. But I wonder if it will materialize........ Many suppliers are giving me problems with my backorders and it's giving me a biggg headache. Wonder if I can trust anyone with manufacturing VGY designs :( 

Ah hah I know! Maybe I am sad now because I can't work on VGY! I can't stand not replying to emails throughout the night. It leaves me feeling empty, my god O_O I can't believe I just said that. 

And.....



I downloaded an app on my iPhone which turns your photo into lomo ones with a great effect. Ya, effect is indeed awesome but look at the above photo - I feel that the lomo effect made me look like a camel -_- 

Maybe I have a camel face.

Anyway, happy birthday Gwen! I know Mikal left some jack-ass message on your FB (he smsed me excitedly asking me to check it out so i presumed he did something sickening) haha. Although you are so far away, I will send you a little something! :D I'll get it when I am free and I will air-mail it over so you gotta waiiiitttttt~ 

Drop me your address in FB okay? Heard you shifted again when your dad called. Don't have your new add. And, take care over there! You know what I mean ;) I will always love you!
 

 
 

For starters, VGY was featured in Sianzonline.com, an online magazine and here's the wonderful spread done up by Maureen. 




Did the interview in English and Maureen translated it into Chinese. Dope! Thank you Maureen :*) 


This week was a mad rush for my team and I to finish our project as submission was due this Friday. Gulp. After struggling hard for 1 entire day without going for lunch, we worked till dinner and when we were finally done, we had the shag-giest feeling ever. And I suggested watching....movie!

Teddy and I are movie-goers :)) We loveeeeeee watching movies together!

I didn't know it cost only $6 to watch a movie in Cathay on a weekday. Dirt cheap, don't you think so? 

So we watched.....



YES! HOW TO TRAIN YOUR FREAKING DRAGON!


If you are thinking whether to watch it, YES GO. 
If you are laughing at your girlfriend for even suggesting this movie, GO EAT YOURSELF.
If you think this movie is only for kids, OPEN THE NEAREST WINDOW AND JUMP DOWN.


Okay my point is, it is a dammmnnn good movie. Nevermind it's a cartoon-movie. It is arguably a movie suitable for adults as well. The jokes were funny and the dragons look like mutated pokemons, aww c'mon, you got to watch it for yourself. 

It is definitely not a typical pussified cartoony movie meant to feed the fantasies of a pathetic 7 year old kid. It is a WHOLESOME movie packed with excitement, sadness, laughter and loads of joy! 

I felt so lighthearted after watching this movie my stress were temporarily gone, again! :D 


Digressing, I love the pants from Sup, designed by Ding Xuan, my new found weird friend haha. It was given to me freeeeeeeee~~ 



Im in love with all the nude and cream colors. Very nicely, it is now the trend as well :D Thank you crunchycoconut hahaha! 




Paired it with my white tube :) 

Recently, I have been very distracted. I get very restless. God knows why. It feelsss like the world is on my shoulders. And I hate the night. Because it gets so lonely over here. In the day, I get so distracted I pour out all the M&Ms onto my foolscape paper during lecture. It was all over my notes.

I was writing amidst all M&Ms. 



Because seeing colors make me feel happy and awake, temporarily.




During the weekends, I splurged. Possibly, to destress? Not a good excuse. But buying new things really makes me happy. Wearing new shoes make me even happier. Just that my feet were blister-fried at the end of the day.  --__--"


So thanks to the project, I am kept busy every single day, not yet getting started on revision for my final exam goddammit. And all the waking-up-early-in-the-mornings allowed me to snap beautiful pictures around me. That is why, everything happened for a reason.

Learning point: "So the projects made me snap beautiful pictures with value which in turn, calmed my mind when I see them." (Yes, this is how I sound like when I talk to myself. So everything is not so bad afterall because 1 thing leads to another.)  

When the 4 seasons will never come to Singapore, my photos seem to portray 2 of such seasons in Singapore. 




I call this...Spring :*)
This is the first time I see flowers blooming in my park. The park was literally in pink and yellow landscape. It was such a beautiful sight :) 




The white flowers (very much resembling Kleenex) carpeted the grass where fishermen always gather to admire their catch from the pond :) 




I call this...Summer :*) 
This is the view from my house. Very lovely isn't it? 

All photos above are taken using my iPhone 3GS. They are unedited :) 


Digressing yet again, met BestFriend2006 in school today and heard an unfortunate news from her :*(  Didn't know how to react because at that moment...I felt her loneliness. 



See, we think in unison. We painted the same OPI color and wore similar design of sandals. It's no wonder we won the title BestFriends in 2006 :))) 

I hope she will be happier looking at the boooottiffulll Spring and Summer photos cos those photos always make me happier :) Haven't been a very good friend though. Did not text her after my project to check on her...even until now~ I don't know what to say to her. She puts on such a strong facade. I don't want to say the wrong things so....I'd better zip it for the time being. Hope she is managing well on her own :)) 

For me, I hope I will buck up and feel better soon. Each day is a drag to me and I retire to bed with sadness every night. And i really don't know why. 


Cheers~


 

 
2 new beauty products to rave about. 



Recently I gotten pore smoother from ZA at Watsons on an impulse buy due to my inner self-consciousness of having big pores filled with disgusting blackheads. It's like, just walking into the store and buying something to "fix" that imperfection without even having to use it makes me feel that my face look so much better already -.- Haha. These are girls for you. 

Usually, items purchased due to impulse buying for that moment of feel-good, ends up in my junk of used-once-then-throw makeup. But surprisingly, ZA pore smoother is an impressive product. It smoothen the skin on my nose and cheeks and the visibility of blackheads and pores are drastically reduced! I don't know if it will work for you but it definitely did for me! Just use it over your foundation and it does not clog pores or cause your skin to be oily.  $15.90 and it was a worthy buy~

And another product, Activa Black Mask meant to clarify and brighten up your skin by removing blackheads and those disgusting monsters in your pores that evolve from left-over makeup on your face. I tried it, just a moment ago and scared Teddy when he received the photo in his email haha. 


HE WAS MORTIFIED, HAHA. 

Left it on my face for 20 minutes and I peeled it off afterwards. The peeling off part...pain factor is 4/5 as I have tons of little hairs on my face (think i used to be a monkey..). Pain was not totally excruciating, it was bearable~ Just like threading. 

Upon removing the black mask, my inquisitive self took a magnifying glass and examine the mask and to my pleasant surprise, I saw tons of monkey hairs stuck on the mask! That's not all, on closer inspection, I saw tiny yellowish dots as well. To educate you, those are actually your dirty blackheads. Blackheads are not totally black, you know? But that doesn't mean they are called yellowheads because that would sound really funny -_-" 

SO I SUCCESSFULLY REMOVED SOME BLACKHEADS THANKS TO ACTIVA BLACK MASK! I'M GOING TO GO BACK TO WATSON AND BUY ALL THE ACTIVA MASKS LEFT ON ITS RACKS I TELL YOU, ITS AMAZING. 

After washing my face, my face felt so much cleaner without the feeling of tightness and it was so smooth to the touch. Tried applying makeup on my face and seeeeeeeee! The makeup went on so smoothly and my face is very radiant! 


Took the photo right after makeup was done so my makeup has not yet "oxidised" resulting in 2 different color tones from my face and shoulders. 

I enjoyed my weekend with Teddy :) Although there were some problems that arised (not between us) but some issues with a company that resulted in a fierce email war, I have calmed down and consulted advice on the matter :) 

Turns out my worries are unfounded. I have documented all sequence of events and should the matter be pursued by legal proceedings, all i can say is, bring it on. Everything on my end is in my favour and there's is really nothing the other party can sue me with. I am definitely not someone whom you can mess around with. Being bullied in secondary school was more than enough for me. I am no longer the girl-in-uniform.

I don't want to see anyone stepping on my head, going overboard with words with me. If you want to do so, be smarter than me first.

Maybe that is why, I do not really have friends I want to trust and build an intimate relationship with, after secondary school. 

Yes, I can never bring myself to trust anyone, at all. Much more, if I am going into the business world in future, I have to learn to protect myself and build a sturdy defensive wall. It's never too early to start, isn't it? ;) 

In anyway, I know, in times of trouble, I have most importantly, Teddy, my family and my extended family whom will be there to help me with their experience in the treacherous working world. That the kind of richness not many have, and I can boast about. 

Nonetheless, I love ending my post with photos with Teddy and myself :) 





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Before I end off, Apple orders for April 2010 are now opened! I don't know why there are soooooo many people who are asking for iPhones now! Perhaps it's an in-thing? Haha. I just know that after using my iPhone, I don't really want to switch to any other phones. It is soooo convenient and I can always exercise my "ten-minute" rule with this phone. Because I am connected to the internet whereever I go! At a data plan of 12GB a month, no matter how many videos I watch, how many emails I sent, this 12GB is endlesssss! 

So, remember to contact Teddy at hoodstamp@gmail.com if you are interested in the price list!